I ordered some things from zazzle.com and they came!
It’s no secret that I adore TheBloggess – She is funny as hell, and also frequently moving, and far more courageous than I have ever been about her struggles with depression, anxiety and self-harm. It seemed only fair that I should repay her in some small measure for the joy and laughter she has brought me by supporting her in some small way.
This is what I bought:
I also decided to get Silver Ribbon Buttons.
The silver ribbon symbolizes support for those with depression, anxiety, or other mental illnesses. Since The Bloggess chose to be open about her struggles (see this post), the least I can do is wear the ribbon as well. I, too, am trying to kick that bastard, depression, to the curb on a daily basis.
It is a struggle that I despise. I’m tired of it. I’ve been working around it and through it and over and under it for most of my life. It’s pretty old by this time, but it may follow me around, biting my ankles and tripping me up, for the rest of my life. Part of me resents that. I shake my fist (figuratively speaking) at the universe, furious that after all this time, I have not yet moved beyond.
I will save for another time the laundry list of crap in life. It’s not germane to the matter at hand, and I still have trouble giving myself permission to not be a paragon. But I will proudly wear the ribbon, and, if asked, will say why honestly and without reservation.
That’s an act of courage, right there.